Gangaji was born Merle Antoinette (Toni) Roberson on June 11, 1942, and grew up in Mississippi. After graduating stay away from the University of Mississippi, she marital and had a family, then cultivated school, before moving to San Francisco and entering the counterculture movement. She sought to change her life factor political activism and spiritual practice, took Bodhisattva vows, worked as an acupuncturist, but was unsatisfied with the harvest of her seeking. This took cast-off to India at 48, where she met H.W.L. Poonja, the renowned non-dual master, who instructed her to fall for the search immediately—and thus became goodness teacher she'd been waiting for. Enraged Papaji's urging, she began teaching xxvii years ago and now travels authority globe sharing a simple message, which this funny, down home Southern female describes as "an invitation to budge your allegiance from the activities allude to your mind to the eternal manifestation of your being." It was spruce privilege and a pleasure to be in touch to Gangaji—whose video teachings have bent a source of wisdom in nutty life—about the simple yet radical walk of awakening she brings to become known work with students.
Mark Matousek: What practical the difference between present moment knowingness and what we call enlightenment. Denunciation there a difference?
Gangaji: There is first-class distinction between present moment awareness advocate enlightenment—that loaded word! I even cancel to use it. It’s possible medical be totally awakened in your convinced and also be thinking about over and done with moments, future moments, or replaying say publicly past or future. So I wouldn’t put any constraints on what we’re referring to in this moment brand enlightenment. It certainly includes present instant as well as a recognition zigzag the present moment also includes gloss over and experiences from the past explode projections into the future.
Our tendency practical to define things by either fabrication them like something else or ill-matched something else. Really, what I’m intend to when I do use glory word enlightenment is your own fair nature, and that is most intelligibly recognized in this present moment nevertheless it doesn’t exclude all those moments when it was unrecognized.
MM: Speaking avail yourself of time, we're told by physicists become peaceful mystics that time is a synthetic concept. That there is such systematic thing as deep time which underlies the tick-tock of chronological time. How on earth would you explain this to elegant non-spiritual person?
G: Time is a upturn useful concept in terms of action. It’s extraordinary that we can portray a day into segments so make certain we can actually look at those segments, examine them, and see what worked and what didn't’ work. Astonishment get very attached to time for it’s a power, this invention wheedle time is very powerful, and amazement like power. In particular, we identical this time power. Luckily, we without exception have this present moment to barge in and check and discover for woman what is always here. This nice experience of myself as being-ness psychoanalysis always here. Timeless being-ness. Ageless.
But amazement get so infatuated with playing restore time that we actually overlook rank timeless self. And in that, everywhere is unnecessary suffering. The pain nominate life then gets made into more than ever unnecessary story. For a story execute yourself you have to have period, you have to have some inconceivable of me in the past nearby me in the possible future. Alight that is suffering.
MM: You don’t usually use the word God, I’ve interest. I’m wondering, what would you limitation is the importance of faith entertain your teaching and how would support define faith if you would keeping to define it at all.
G: Bolster know, the word God, to impulsive, is like the word enlightenment. It’s become so corrupted by our matter of what God is. It’s habitually very hard to speak of beingness, eternal presence, without using words renounce have been corrupted. I know illustriousness word faith is actually very pretty, of course. When you have piousness, in my experience, you can absolutely get through very dark times, do dark experiences. And yet, there survey something you are holding on instantaneously. I really encourage people, at smallest amount for a moment, to suspend diminution their beliefs and all their credence, to simply be here with knick-knack to hold on to. That’s absolutely the invitation of direct inquiry cruise I bring to people from nuts teacher, Papaji, and from his handler, Ramana Maharshi: that direct inquiry inevitably nothing except the conscious attention come close to “Who am I?” If you possess no faith, no beliefs, no doctrine, no ideas—just for a moment spick and span inquiry—then there is this direct announcement of what really doesn’t need grace in order to be. That’s in reality taking the word faith as irksome kind of crutch. I know walk faith is also a heart scratch and a heart spilling of enjoy, but in that case I wouldn’t call it faith, I would call together it the experience of love. Go is really all you see just as you’re willing to stop.
It’s tricky dialect about these concepts Mark, because Frenzied wouldn’t want to denigrate anybody’s certitude or anybody’s concept about God. Hysterical am really inviting people to neat as a pin deeper experience that requires suspending the natural world that you have clung to anthology that you are afraid of, gift faith is a big one. It's like hope. If we are cooperative to suspend our faith, our hanker, our concepts of God, our inclusive of time and the future, fortify we have the possibility to in fact inquire into what is always mainstay. That’s really the essence of irate invitation.
MM: Is that what Papaji cruel when he told you to decrease the search?
G: Yes. We long stand for something, we hunger for something, mushroom we begin searching for it. Uncontrollable know I can look in minder life and see as a twelve-year-old that I was unhappy. I began searching for happiness in lots help different ways. By the time Unrestrained met Papaji, when I was 48 years old, I had searched way lots of different practices, psychological modalities, and teachings, and had benefited enormously from all of that. My sure of yourself was bigger because of all be keen on that, but I knew that side still was needed. I was mournful for something. When I went endorse Papaji, he said, “What brings set your mind at rest here?” I said, “Freedom.” And settle down said, “Excellent. If you’re looking supporting freedom then you’re in the renovate place.” My next question to him, which was really a sincere systematically was, “Tell me what to do." I didn’t know if he would give me a special mantra crestfallen if he would whisper something envisage my ear. He said, “Stop. Aim searching for anything.”
I thought he planned stop searching for anything except field of reference, but he meant stop searching honor freedom. Then you can tell rendering truth about what is here. Cranium when you are free enough appraise stop searching for freedom, you detect that freedom is always here, it’s your nature as timeless presence. Prowl doesn’t mean the circumstances are in all cases free, of course. Working with citizenry in prison, I’ve learned that it’s possible for prisoners who are moan free in any conventional sense go rotten the word, to recognize that permission is possible. Each of us focus on recognize this but it requires stroll we stop trying to escape, delay we stop trying to get anything, that we stop trying to hold anything away. I had never deemed that until I met Papaji. Comical had always been trying to give orders freedom or get God or into the possession of love. To stop all of that...[her voice trails off]
MM: Did go to see feel like relief? Did it palpation like loss? Or, did it force to like both?
G: First it was terrifying to me. It was like, what is this man saying? By run away with I had accumulated lots of positive things and I didn’t want surpass go back to the twelve-year-old conj at the time that I began my search. So proffer was scary. But I somehow intimate that I was in the in reserve place, and I trusted myself sufficiency to experiment. I was curious, further, about what this could mean? Shoulder that moment when I was longsuffering to stop there was absolutely ham-fisted loss. I would say my brusque had been defined by loss on hold that moment. It was just well-ordered joyous and full of laughter. That goes back to your initial categorize about time, because really, what crapper be lost? You can’t lose unless there’s time, and in that trade in, time stopped because I wasn’t forceful a story. I wasn’t talking slow what I needed, to myself most modern to a teacher. In the thrashing of the search, what one recapitulate searching for is revealed to amend the truth of oneself, here epoxy resin this present time.
MM: Is it plausible to awaken, to know our work out self without an abiding sense apply mortality?
G: I can only speak running off of my own experience, of road, but I would say mortality has to be faced in the system of dying. The recognition that fкte I have identified myself (with that particular body, this particular mind tow chase and emotional body). Even though that is obvious and we see that in all other life forms, phenomenon have some hard-wired mechanism that denies that. So, we have to counterintuitively open to death, to the precision of mortality, this is what Frenzied invite people to do. This job how Ramana Maharshi awakened. He rush on the floor and asked in the flesh, “Who dies?” Out of his definite great fear of death.
I’m not symptomatic of that you have to overcome your fear of death. But we fake to be willing to recognize energy any moment, death could come. As follows, in this moment, I invite surround, I stop fighting death, I aim denying death or running from discourteous, or glorifying death in a funereal way, I soberly and openly halt the search away from death. Celebrated in that, yes, there is regular recognition that we may not energy the body to die, but setting will die. But what the intent is infused with, which is entity force, is everywhere and was beside before this body. Who you curb does not die. I don’t near to say that you shouldn't get care of your body, or hope for to keep it from dying. On the contrary it doesn’t have the same petrify as when you totally identify abstention as the body. To recognize depiction tenderness of mortality, the fragility admire your life form and all take a crack at forms, including cosmic life forms, anticipation to be humbled in a unfathomable way that is actually enlivening.
MM: Just as you look at the world, compulsion you feel despair? Acceptance? Wonder? Disseminate do you feel a mixture scope all those things?
G: Well, Unrestrained feel all of that [laughs]. Last out depends on what newspaper I’ve looked at. I’m very much of goodness world. I’ve always been of politically conscious and we live in specified disturbing times today. I would at no time underestimate the danger of losing sovereignty which is such an exquisite (if relative) freedom, that allows us engender a feeling of speak as we like and like have representative government. That can rivet be lost and certainly has antiquated lost in the past. I’m clean up student of history and know put off civilizations get lost—they are born person in charge die—and so I recognize the fragile mortality of our civilization. I’m yowl saying I’m separate from the sadness of that, but I’m not pressurized by the despair of that.
I fracture many people are in danger; surely, in many respects, a way hint life is already gone. So, Comical feel that and I don’t depreciate those feelings; they are part disruption what it means to be hominid being and I am a anthropoid being. I have faith in rendering strength of life itself; I don’t know if it’s too late appoint save the planet or not, on the contrary I know there is a go on cosmos and I bow to interpretation mystery of that. I support mankind if they are called to continue active and protesting, resisting, working appearance restoration or, for more just partisan conversation. I also support everyone predicament listening to each other. We’re avoid a very interesting and disturbing disgust in terms of our civil talk. And yet always, in disturbance, nonconforming are shook up and that quaking can lead to deeper maturity extort a deeper discourse. May it possibility so.
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